Well, one more year to step into 21 years old.
Clock is ticking. Time is still running. God, time has gone through really fast, it's like a flash.
I wish I didn't leave any regret behind but things ain't go smoothly as we wish.
Hopefully, life is going pretty well for me now though there were still many bad shits happened.
Like what? thought that I was genius enough to get a good result and gave up studying more but eventually ended up getting shit result and even got myself stop getting fund from government for my degree.
This was be my biggest mistake I have ever made for myself in past I guess.
I don't only let my self down I will most probably disappoint my parents as well. Until now, I do not even dare to tell them about this. Not even my parents, I do not really talk about this to my friends unless a few who are really close to me. It's not because I am embarrassed of telling the truth, it is the matter that even me myself can't get through this, can't accept that I have done this to myself. LOL
I was really not able to accept this truth, seriously but now, I realize that I can't keep on thinking about the failure but more on motivating myself to pay back. Get a better result as an apologize. To make the thing right.
For my study, yeah, I am still working on it, learn new things, not only education but more about action. Action speaks louder than words. Everyone knows about this.
Every single time, when I am getting any result I'm not satisfied with or when I am about to give up like I am used to, I will ask myself a question : Have I worked harder? or Have I even tried harder?
Not talking about those bad shits. Let's talk about how am I going recently.
There is another thing I am still working on, my appearance or you can say my look, the outside. Yeah I know the inside is more important than the outside of a person but people are still like to look at pretty things, pretty human, aren't it?
I do care about my appearance. I take my every single piece of clothes, every outfit, my hair,my face seriously. I am that kind of person that really cares a lot about how I look like to the public. I'd like myself to look pretty every single moment. Who doesn't? LOL
That's why I draw my eyebrows every morning. I do have eyebrows but they just look thin not that visible if you look at me from they long distance. Put on eyelid tape every morning to make my eyes look bigger, put on my lipstick every moment else I will look pale. From head to toe I try to make myself look better than before.
I am doing all these not only because that I want to look prettier. It's because that nowadays I realize one thing. People make judgements . I am not trying to be criticize but some people do. Not only some,but majority of them. If you look prettier, you will have the advantage. You will get treated better, get a better attention and also get accepted. This is also the way to boost your self-confidence. Ever since I am younger, I have realized about all these facts. The world is cruel, it really does.
Yes, you can prove yourself by the capabilities and strength that you have. However, if you have a better appearance you will score a higher marks even before you start to speak. This is what I've learnt and I believe that some of us also know about this.
Of course I have experienced about some good things happened on me, haha. Like getting compliments from the very beginning and a lot things happened in the following. I am not going to talk about that here. Internet is crazy these days. Things will spread. Who knows? So , let's just have those good memories be with my myself, haha. Maybe I will tell if you ask me personally.
I am not trying to tell you to go and have plastic surgery or what to make yourself to have a better look but at least try to look good, look tidy. Because, first impression carries marks. :)
So, that's all for today. My very first fresh blog, lol. Have a nice day and byeee .
